tomorrow is my 23rd birthday, and while i was hoping to spend it in the wilderness of northern california, i came down with meningitis (which we thought might be cancer spreading to my spine, phew!) a week ago and am once more unable to travel and take that next step towards finally getting home.
my tumor came back when i was on tour and due to it’s renewed size and location flying would put me at serious risk for a stroke or aneurysm. i have not been home (in portland) since early march, and really need the grounding qualities of my personal sanctuary to start healing again.
i don’t know if i’ll be able to do anything special on the actual day, simply because my symptoms make even walking around the block a serious strain. but, when this pain subsides, i am hoping to take a beautiful, leisurely road trip between the bay area and portland with a dear friend to experience nature and satiate a bit of my rampant wanderlust.
upon reviewing my finances i have come to the realization that within a month i will be completely destitute. i have not been able to book work or really do anything really responsible for over 2 months, and don’t foresee this situation changing any time soon.
i also have about $2k in medical bills outstanding, and financial stress is something i am not the best at letting go: growing up in a household torn apart by debt makes me awful at ignoring it.
all this buildup is me pussyfooting around something i have resisted doing since my diagnosis: asking for help.
if you’d like to make a small monetary gift to me for my birthday, i will be using any funds received in this approximate fashion:
50% medical bill pay-offs
30% road trip funds
20% medicine/health food funds
you can shoot me some celebratory dollars over at paypal via my email address: firstname.lastname@example.org
EVERY little bit will help me get my life back on some semblance of a track again, and give me a little bit more freedom from stress.
thank you, from the bottom of my heart, even if you have nothing to give but your support.
there is no fashion to decay.
limirsmath asked: All I can say is to stay strong and positive.
i lost both strength and positive focus for over a month, currently trying to pick up the pieces and find that internal momentum again. not only was i diagnosed with cancer, but almost every other form of significant loss or trauma possible has gone down since that day… there’s a lot of rebuilding to be done. the life i had a year ago is completely gone.